You’re no longer here
After almost two and a half months
I stopped feeling you, inside
I no longer have constant company
Throughout my days
Throughout my nights
To talk to, express all my emotions
I don’t feel you, anymore
Gone, vanished, disappeared
Your invasive inconvenience
Of having to sleep on my back
Or starting to walk with a wobble
I’m sure you enjoyed that
I started reading a book
I bought it to read to you aloud
But as soon as I got around to it
You were no longer around
No longer am I reminded
That it’s 8am, time for breakfast
You had me starving by then
I was hungry and tired all the time
I’m now alert and attentive and remembering things
Which is a heartbreak of a different kind
It’s like you just poofed away
But with a massive bang
Because that night you said goodbye
I thought I would surely die
It was so painful
So scary, so surreal
I didn’t know what to expect
My body was out of its element
I cried, I trembled
But I couldn’t hold on to you
I now understand what unconditional love means
I loved you just for knowing
You were created through love
I loved you just for existing
I loved you as my answered prayer
Though you only lasted a fraction of the time alotted
You took a hold on my heart
Before you departed
I hope it mends for the next time around
I miss you,
My 9 weeks, 3 days and several agonizing hours