Not the easiest for you

For you
I’m not the easiest
Book to read,
I have torn,
Burnt,
And missing pages
And even those
That are left
Intact
Have illegible
Scribblings
And unfinished
Sentences

For you
I’m not the easiest
Way to travel
There are
Too many opportunities
For accidents
And endless
Ways
To get lost
In my eyes
Or maybe
In my messy ways

For you
I’m not the simplest
Choice to pick
As a matter of fact
I may be
The least favorite
Because with this choice
Comes the option
Of losing
Your heart
Your mind
Your everything

For you
I’m not the simplest
Being to figure out
As a matter of fact
I may be
The most mind boggling
I’ve got details
That are puzzling
I’ve got questionable
Time lines
And evidence of
Being crazy and cruel

For you
I’m not the kindest
Or so I may seem
But I have the kindest
Of intentions
And my unkindness
Is part
Of my armour
Built over years
Of life experiences
Facing loss
And hurt

So I’m not the simplest
One to comprehend
Not the easiest
Heart to enter
Nor will my words
Always be the kindest
But know this
I love deeply
I never let go
And even when
I am my meanest
And in my ugliest state
My love is still strongest
For you

By dasouda